Last night I ended Page 1 with an analogy when the Harley screeched to a halt at a cross roads. An ended journey that clearly revealed that life as I normally defined it would be forever changed. That happened a couple of months ago. Today, I assure you that the release of pressure and breath of freedom was truly immediate. My relationship with Christ had prepared me. You might say, He had already packed me for my new journey. That in itself, once you learn my testimony, is truly a miracle.
Leaving the job and the church in January…my season to end that cross road had been a long time coming. The beauty is that I left with all the treasures from those many years there as a member and a leader in the flock with the Baptism of the Holy Ghost, spiritual growth and strategy, altar prayer counselor experience, teacher in ladies bible study, leader in the singles, and sincere love to those I ministered and served for so many years. You see, the true value of that season comes with me – the things of the heart from me and from you. Always know that YOU matter to me. But the pressure, the infinite details, and all the waste of a spirit, well it truly will become beauty for ashes because my God is faithful.
This journey was prophesied back on November 1, 2009. Even then God was preparing me. Some of you may remember the guest Evangelist, Prophet and Singer that came to Christian World, John Ragsdale. The following prophecy was spoken to me from the platform during service. It was a particularly painful time for me and God read my spiritual mail for all the world to hear. My spirit received it all. I share…
Patti, the Lord says to tell you that your past has prepared you for now. Not just your training but your tribulation – the good, the bad and the ugly. Every bit of that has gotten you where you are and is going to help take you where you are going. And the Lord said to tell you specifically, because they have walked away from you and because there’ve been things that you have walked away from, that this is releasing you into this next time of destiny…this is destiny for you….destiny for you…..
So, God has a plan! Do you realize that He has one for you? You see, I believe that we are all born purposely unique to God. That we are born to do something individually for HIM that ONLY we will do. It is personal. Don’t ever doubt that He desires to be up close to you …most definitely in your breathing space…or breathing for you!
I tell you this because I didn’t know it could even be personal between Jesus and I until a little over 9 years ago. Oh, I had been a Christian for 9 years already. I had volunteered in ministry. I had studied and memorized the Word of God. I was a wife, mother, mother in law, daughter, sister, friend, co worker, etc. But until I walked away from my second husband – I didn’t see that I needed God to transform me to be what He created me to be – that things in me were broken…like stained glass strewn all over the floor. It is amazing that many times we don’t even see that we have emotional or addictive issues or behaviors until we do something more than once. I never could believe that either of my two husbands loved me. They tried to tell me but I never believed them. I didn’t see myself as lovable, worthy or valuable. I hated my self-definition or should I say, my experience-definition, and forever locked away my heart in a personal prison…missing out on the freedom and beauty of true intimate heart relationships.
I will share many private encounters between He and I in this testimony blog. I have to share it with you. I need you to know that He fixes what is broken and if He doesn’t fix it He can replace or recreate it. He can give you a new mind, new beliefs, a clean heart, purity in the place of perversion, and testimonies for your scars. You don’t have to be who you think you are. He doesn’t want you to be. He wants you to be who He says you are.
We are to be scripturally created. How cool is that!!!!
Tomorrow I will “begin” the reflection journey of this blog all the way back to the lies spoken as fear when I was a little girl…to the lies believed when I was a teenager…to the false beliefs I acted upon as a young woman…till the day Jesus showed me what He does to lies. I don’t know how long this journey will take…but each moment will matter.
Bless all of you, have a peaceful night…for God always “gives His Beloved sweet sleep”.
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Patti Corbello Archer