Truly our relationship with Jesus is UNIQUE and should be treated as an honored and holy opportunity to connect with Him. And while many of us may share relationship similarities with our Lord God that we can all relate to, I deeply believe that some aspects of each person’s experience with Him comes through open doors of just-for-you intimate encounters.
In my heart I know that each of us is born with a multi-fold God-purpose. The Word of God tells us that He knows the plans that He has for us…so most of us hunger and seek the destined ministry or service assignments that He calls us to accomplish in our lifetime. But like all love relationships there should certainly be another level…a private dominion that keeps His flame defining and intertwining with us over, and over, and over.
Have you ever heard the saying, “They threw the mold away after they made him…or her?” I believe God creates an environment with each of us…privately…that no one else duplicates…our own personal “Mold” so-to-speak. And we know that He loves variety – just look at the world and the people in it! But as for me…I know that when He planted that defining concept in my heart it took a while for me to quit trying to be like everyone else and just let my uniqueness be what it was…to be free to be the me that He created me to be…body, soul, and spirit.
Years ago when I first began to work on His value concept for me, I wrote a story that reveals my doubt. Because of all the painful places and poor decisions that I had lived through my “value” definition was shaky at best. Here…let me share an excerpt from that story…
I open my eyes and the light is dim. There is broken glass everywhere around me. I try to pick up the pieces but I can’t. I close my eyes and feel the despair. I hang my head and moan … How can my Lord ever use a broken vessel? I go sit huddled in the corner and I look at the pieces of my life all around me. So much is ugly – the monsters that really were in the dark when I was a child, the panic when I couldn’t escape the touch, the fear that never left, the belief that I didn’t matter enough to be saved, the desperate decisions that ruled me later while I looked for a savior on the earth, the lies that I believed, the prison walls that I built and the weapons of my destruction which were placed strategically in my own hands. Where is the beauty Lord? People don’t want to hear this… they look at me and I am ashamed. I don’t want them to see what is broken…I never wanted anyone to know that it hurt…I want them to see that I survived – the strength and endurance that it took. I shivered there on the floor and grieved because the Lord could never use me to show anything as wonderful as Him.
Eventually, I lie down amidst the broken glass and found release in sleep. What I didn’t know as I was in that room was that I wasn’t alone with brokenness all around me. As I slept the sleep of the burdened and weary, a light projected into the room and Jesus walked across the glass and stood looking down at me. He said over me, “Daughter, your brokenness is where I will be revealed. One of the most beautiful things in the world is stained glass and it is made up of many broken pieces that the light shines through – you will be My glass and I will be your light – through you I will make beauty of everything painful that has touched you. So… sleep daughter, sleep. And when you awake, your journey to freedom will begin. Don’t despair that you are alone for I will meet you there and I have personally orchestrated your freedom trail.” (excerpt end)
And He did set my feet upon that freedom trail my friends – and what an adventure it was! One moment He was my Savior, then the next my Friend, an hour later He was my Healer…and on the way home my Provider. There was never a need He ignored. There was never a knock on His door unanswered.
I remember working at the law firm back then and on my break sometimes I would feel led to go to the file room just to speak in tongues and spend time with Him. It was like a private internet line right to Him anytime I wanted to look His way…or call on His name. He was never too busy and was always ready to reveal to me just how much it pleased Him when I missed Him.
I think I was just so grateful to learn that He did think I was all that to Him. Jesus…the Mighty One…The One and Only…thought I was the bomb, lol. Well, in His terms, “The apple of His eye.” Glory hallelujah! I grew up thinking that He didn’t want anything to do with me…that He thought I was worthless and disgusting – so once I cast down those lies and received His truth in my spirit…I just moved in and camped out at His feet.
Scripture from Song of Songs 5:1 in the Amplified version shares God’s thoughts to me the best, “Drink, yes, drink abundantly of love, o precious one, for now I know you are mine, irrevocably mine.” When I RECEIVED this revelation, I could have cared less what the devil said. As far as I was concerned the enemy could just eat dirt and die…for lack of a better way to say it. NO ONE could take me from my God!!
I rarely think of the evil one. Too many people waste too much time, energy, prayer and thought time on him. To me, he is nothing and not worth my time. I have the ear of the King of Kings, what is better than that? For real.
So, as I sit here tonight at the feet of Jesus sharing with you, I want you to know that He is with you…sees you…loves you…and waits for you. Never think that you know all that there is to know about Him. Every day is a holy kaleidoscope. I can just imagine His grin as He leans low to you and says, “Call on me precious one…just call.”
In fact, put Him on your Holy Ghost speed dial. You’re on His.
Kaleidoscope of Glory
Patti Corbello Archer
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